Sight

My dear blog...

Things have been changing in my life lately. I asked God to show me who He is; I began trying to look for him, because I needed to see him at work. And I've been reading Exodus; the picture of a God fearsome and powerful, wrathful and massive. But then it occurred to me - all of this majesty and magnificence was contained in one person, no bigger or more beautiful than you or I - what a sight it must have been to look upon Jesus, to those who recognized who he was! Then onward, to think that we tiny, silly, selfish things tore that perfect man apart - God! - I began crying.

It seems that I begin to understand one thing - and suddenly I understand two or three more. How inexplicable is God - he never does things by halves! The Bible has been coming alive for me; no longer just stories, like cartoons and badly-made movies. I'm seeing it in my head; seeing how I would have reacted, how these people must have felt.

I, who once led such a purposeless life, am beginning to see my place in the world. I'm beginning to hear what I am called to do. I was so spiritually blah for a while; I don't want to go back there. I don't ever want to become so complacent again.

Here's to change!